Pre-transition..Blue was a guy that contended with the everyday trials of a speech impediment, a stutter to put it in a more simple term. Actually it's still something he's self-conscious over but he tends to deal with it differently from when he was a kid. In these times he can go from very talkative to silent for long stretches of time. That's due in part to two reasons. Either he doesn't feel like stuttering through his words or the burden of being self-conscious rears its ugly head. He was teased often as a kid and even by adults, he was thought to be the "slow" kid. Which wasn't true at all. He wasn't a genius but he wasn't stupid either. Plus the way you speak doesn't often relate to how smart you are.

He could be quite the sweetheart though. He loves companionship. That's not saying he can never be alone but doesn't like it and prefers to be in the company of at least one person. Along with that, Blue is very big on physical contact. He's liable to reach out to you with anything from a fleeting touch against the sleeve of your shirt to a full on hug and in that hug you can feel how deeply he cares. Sometimes this can border on testing boundaries. Sometimes Blue can overlook boundaries. Example being touching someone that might be romantically involved with someone else in a way that might look like flirting to an onlooker. He doesn't mean anything by it, it's just sometimes he can't help it.

He can get himself into quite a bit of trouble because he is a kleptomaniac. Kleptomaniac is an impulse control disorder that results in the urge to steal. it's not about his being malicious or mean to the people he's stolen from. It's just an urge he can't just ignore. He'll take any small shiny object that ain't nailed down. Jewelry, watches, pens and anything with a shine to it isn't safe. Afterwards he does feel some guilt but it won't do anything for the next time he gets the strong urge again. It can be treated with therapy or medications (antidepressants) but it isn't curable. Honestly with the way his life is now, he doesn't have access to either one.

Post transitation.. post his mutation into a level V vampire, the struggle is real. He doesn't like not being himself though one can argue that his predator side is him now as well. The very strong urge to hunt and feed is one he's still grappling with. Blue gets angry with himself after every feed. He's never been one to hurt anybody. Basically can't stand any sort of confrontation that is angry or aggressive when he's not in predator mode. But that insatiable urge to stay alive via the need for feeding on humans is one he can't successfully shake. It took a long time for him to move on from feeding on a human child once. He was absolutely beside himself once he realized how far he went and what a true monster he is now. After all who'd willing prey on a child? Though he didn't kill the child, he'd come very close.

This beast inside his heart now is something that does get very emotional over and sometimes goes as far as crying. There have been times where he's thought about taking himself out to avoid living like this.Just tempting death by letting someone shoot him in the head or heart. He'd probably do it without hesitation if it wasn't for his best friend. His best friend probably doesn't realize how much of a saving grace he is for him as he'd been since they'd been friends. There's a side of Blue that knows he wouldn't want to leave his friend behind like that, knowing how much he's lost already.